I am tired, full time job now with an IT company. I love it, but football season is here, and I got 2 boys that play on two different teams, a younger daughter that cheer leads and an older daughter in the marching band.
I attend church regularly, and i am pretty active there, running multimedia and...sigh...trying to run the website...(work that i need to get one with).
Then there is gaming, artwork that HAS to be DONE! the Group plays every other weekend, marines to paint, models to build...and this blog.
WHEN DID MY LIFE GET SO BUSY?!?!?!?!
No, I'm not bowing out, I will even out, football season will end in October and work will become the norm, so I guess I am just venting, and maybe a little...depressed?
Ah, yeah I also deal with some severe depression, as the result of PTSD from deployments. I was US Army (National Guard) for a good portion of my life, and alot of that time was in a full time position, it was my regular job up untill 4 or so years ago, the Army determined I was to "broken" to keep and dumped me. So to school I went to get all "official" in what I did for years in the Army, IT, radio and what not.
I overall loved my job, back in the day, but looking back with new eyes and a new political view (I am a Libertarian) I think I would have done better in High School and went to college 20+ years ago, I am 40+ now and well the Army did break me.
Now before you get all "Thank you for your service" on me...know this, I didn't do it for you. I don't know you and other than maybe helping you change a flat if I saw you on the side of the road I sure as the Nine Hells are Hilly not die for you. OH MY GAWDS now your gonna get all pissy with me right?
Look, I joined the Regular Army back in 92 'cause I was a dumb @$$ that didn't do his homework and pulled a D+ to graduate. I had no intention to "Serve my Country" I just had nothing better to do. Sure I bought in to the whole "HUAAHHH" crap but after getting out and joining the National Guard, that started to fade, Several deployments later I was all "HUAHed" out. Even when I went "Over There" I did it 'cause I wanted to provide for my family and cover my buddy's back, I sure as fart didn't do it for any of you.
So yeah I am a bit PTSD about it. Something I have dealt with for years and years now, so between Night Terrors and Depression I generally am a pretty ok guy.
Maybe this is just me stealth venting over oh how disappointed I am over the direction of the country in general, I don't know. And you know what? I generally try to avoid this crap on my blog. But I just needed to get this crap off my chest.
So if you made it here, or you just skipped the middle and started reading here, Thanks. I love you guys and gals you are all generally great folks and thanks for reading my crappy blog!
Man I feel better....